Aphantasia – Escaping Through the River, 2021
My project seeks to explore the lack of visual imagery of the mind, a phenomenon described as APHANTASIA. In this project, I investigate – adopting an experimental approach – the relationship between memory and mental visual imagery.
The inspiration started when I accidentally discovered Aphantasia, listening to BBC Radio 4. As I found out that I have this condition, I initiated my personal research by taking part in a case study. The lack of my mind's eye aphantasia benefited me from being more creative. I start a project without any end plan and let my subconscious take over lead me to the unknown.
The use of different mediums (camera, cyanotype, scanner, sketches, poetry) was an attempt to depict how aphantasic people contemplate different layers of their brain for remembering.
Throughout the project, I seek answers to questions like: Did I have aphantasia from childhood? Is there any relation between trauma and aphantasia? How does my brain remember the events and how it works? How do I make artwork without any visual imagery?
For that my research is rooted in science and psychology by following up with the research team of professor Adam Zeman's Mind's Eye.
This short video presents a juxtaposition of layered photographs, drawings, and spoken word, in order to reflect the way my brain deals with remembrance without the benefit of the mind’s eye. The selected images are emblematic of the emotional attachment I have to my memories. I use them to express my experience of displacement and exile. I manually add new layers onto the surface of photographic prints, as a way to connect visually with my memories and to bring to life the journey across time and space that separates me from the past.